Heavy Heart

This week was great. Better than expected. The Lord is so faithful and so good. I had a track meet today, but pole vaulting got canceled because of the rain. Lots more has been going on, but right now my heart is so heavy.

As I was leaving the track meet I checked my phone and had some text messages. I got news that one of my dear dear friends from this past summer just lost his younger brother in a car accident last night. My heart is so broken for him.

I can't even imagine.

I try to put myself in his shoes and I don't even know what I would do or what would be going through my head.

My heart aches for him.

I hate that I can't do anything. I wish I could fix it. I wish I could make it go away. I wish I could say something that would make him feel better. But I can't.

This is a time when I have nothing left but prayer. And I know that prayer is powerful. I have a quote on my desk that says, "Prayer is the most aggressive, pro-active, offensive, invasive action one can take in any situation...prayer reaches into the spiritual realm and accesses all the power of heaven for the circumstances of earth" - Jennifer Kennedy Dean. I absolutely know that it is true. Sometimes it is just hard to believe. I want to talk to my friend. I want to go see him. I want to DO something! I feel like sitting here, 1,000 miles away, and praying isn't doing anything. But at the same time, I know that is a complete lie. Prayer is probably the best thing for him and his family right now.

My heart is just so heavy right now.

It is literally breaking for him.

I feel like I've recently had a lot of people share bad news from their lives with me. Its hard. And selfishly there is a part of me too, that says, "okay, when's my turn? when is this going to happen to me and how am I going to deal with it?" I hope and pray so bad that it would force me to cling to the cross like I never have before, but man, that is so much easier said than done.

I just can't imagine the pain he is in and that breaks my heart. Such a dear dear friend. I don't want him to hurt. I didn't know his brother, I never met him or anything, but I can't imagine what my friend is going through. 16 year olds aren't supposed to die! Uh. I don't know. This sucks. My heart is so heavy for my friend. I just need to keep praying. That is all I can do.

Please please pray for my friend and his family. (I haven't really talked to him yet, so names may come later) Pray for amazing peace and for the Lord's name to be glorified through this whole situation. The Lord can bring good out of everything. I know that to be true. Even though this is a terrible situation.